Chapter 42
How many times must I remind myself there’s nothing to prove. You are who you are, beautiful and loved with as many layers as a rose, including the thorns. Being vulnerable doesn’t mean to be weak. It just mean to allow…allow for love …allow for life to unfold. The path has been laid down for you. Your journey is spiritual…and you know it.
There is still lots of love to give and to receive…said the mother…. As I lay here opening my self to the love of all these souls that hold me and ground me under this tree of life.
In this chapter, I allow…I receive the nurturing gift of mother thru all these relentless souls that embodied the essence of our original being. We are one, fragments of each other, like a shattered crystal. We see our reflection through every piece - she is my mirror and I am hers.
Everything I seek is already here….not outside, not in the future, not in the past….just here in the now. I’ve been chosen to live this life…this moment. Within me, is the softness of the butterfly and the fierce strength of the warrior. I can be both because I am both….it’s a choice of the heart, not a decision of the mind. It’s a perfect balance of dark and light to witness day and night, life and death all happening simultaneously…allow the miracle.
Fire:
Tonight the flames will burn…and with this fire my soul will be ignited. My fears will turn to dust and all that no longer serves me will become ashes. Breathing new life …breathing out smoke of the death of the old self.
Water:
All these tears I’ve cried, all this pain I’ve felt inside….it is not my pain, it is not my fault. As I release all of these (hatred, anger, fear, silence, noise)… my tears feels like crystals…they hurt….but as they crawl down my face…they shatter into the earth…they feed the rivers of all those lost souls….these tears are for all of you.
Earth:
This journey has exposed so many layers. The layers of the earth, the layers of humanity, the layers of my being. Through light and through darkness I always find our way because the answer is within. This is the chapter of rebirth, a time to come back into the middle world and live with appreciation for all the miracles I experienced every day.
Air:
This path is mine…I have the power and the strength to always keep walking …all that’s left now is to breath. Breath the air of clarity and confidence…this is the best medicine for the soul.
As I depart the old self and venture into the new journey of this chapter, in this timeline…I am ready to embrace the love that have been offered to me. I am ready to speak and listen with kindness and gratitude…I am ready to exist to the full extent of my capacity and allow my intuition to guide me forward. I AM THE GODDESS.
10/29/2021 ~ Haramara, Mexico.
